All the things I have

2007 December 1
by tinapeacock

All the things I’ve been writing lately have been rather depressing. I’d like to break that habit.

I have more things to be grateful for than to complain about.

I’m safe. I have an opportunity to recreate my life, make it into whatever I want. Not many people get a second chance, and if they do, they either don’t realize it or they don’t take advantage of it.

Afterall, I have enough life experience to make sure I do it right (whatever that means).

I have a job, a paycheck every week. I make enough money to save some, and hopefully I’ll bring in some extra with freelancing.

I have my family, a stable soundingboard. People who love me no matter what. I’m supported and allowed to be me.

I have friends, however far away. But they’re there, way out there … and I’m sure to find some more closer to where I am, anyday now.

I have me. Just when I thought I’d lost me, just when I thought I’d seen the last of Tina … I see little slivers of myself coming through, and that makes me the happiest. I’ve survived.

I’ve got hope. Which is something I still retain, despite all my life experience. I can’t seem to shake it. Perhaps it has me. I’ve got hope that one day I’ll be more than I am now, I’ll be a better version of myself, I’ll be self-sufficient and able to give back all that has been given me. I have hope for mankind, I have hope for peace, I have hope for love, I have hope for my future.

I have cold beer. This makes all things easier, and nicer. God bless beer.

I have humor. I can still laugh at myself and the quirky things I do that crack me up. I laugh at the silly things I see on the way to work, I laugh at my alarm clock, at my past blunders, at other people walking around tha mall, at the holidays and all their ridiculous trappings. At the silliness of the things we all get wrapped up in, even though they mean nothing…nothing at all.

I have my eyesight, so said the eye doctor today. Yay for sight! I LOVE seeing!

Thanks God, for all the things in my life. Big or small, nothing is insignificant. I am so grateful.

from → Blogging, Daily Grind, Deep Thoughts

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  1. 2007 December 18
    latha vidyaranya permalink

    u r vey right, tina. you have everything that can make u dance like a peacock! you may not have many things that u desire, but god knows what to give when, to whom. things happen in our lives when god thinks that we are ready to handle it. you have a lap top, when many do not have a lap to sleep on! so many kids do not know what it is to have a family and be loved by them!

    lets be grateful to god for whatever we have today and whatever he gives us tomorrow. gratitude makes our depression vanish :)

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